. love the life you live .

I’m tired of everyone telling me “he’s in a better place now,” “he’s not suffering anymore;” I know that. I know he is somewhere finally able to move his legs and dance again and I couldn’t be happier for him. But that doesn’t help me. He’s not here with me.

I know when someone is mourning there is not much to say and I know it’s tough to find the right words but I just want him back and there is nothing anyone can do or say about it.

I just want to cry and hug someone and for them to tell me he knows I love him. I need to know he will always be watching me and better yet I need to know he’ll be here with me. He was my strength, my inspiration, my everything.

I miss him so much.

Tonight was the last…

Tonight was the last time I will ever see your beautiful face. It was the last time we’d ever physically be in the same room together. You looked so peaceful.

You had your bling earrings on as always and it made me so happy. You had all of your bracelets. You had your dance shoes on which was the most amazing part. You even had your favorite black fedora on which made you look so stylish. You really looked amazing.

I just wanted to hug you. Your Dad was right by your side along with your Mom, Dani and Najah. They were smiling and hugging everyone in the room. I thanked them for their bravery and for welcoming me into their home. They are so strong.

Everyone was there for you bud. Literally EVERYONE. You were the star tonight. I hope you were performing for us up above.

I told you I was sorry for never showing you my allusion and never getting to beat your butt in Super Smash Bros and many other things.

It was the hardest thing I ever had to do but I had to say goodbye.

I love you so much Terrance. Rest in peace.

“Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass… It is about learning to dance in the rain.”